I'm not usually one to share personal information, as I tend to be more private about my personal life. But this I just had to share, as it will pepper most of my future posts, and if I didn't share this info with you, you might be like "what? why is she backtracking and going all baby on us?!"
Thank my lucky stars, I am now 27 weeks pregnant. Having had a long and bumpy road to pregnancy, I wanted to wait to announce to the world that I was pregnant until I passed my critical "intense fear" stage and entered the "mild fear and major excitement" phase. I want to share this with you, but also for those of you out there who are struggling to conceive, or are "reproductively challenged" as I refer to myself - you are not alone. Many times when I read blogs that I love, when the writer announces they're pregnant, I was like "oh! doh! everyone can get pregnant so fast, maybe even from high-fiving their partner!" Each time I heard about someone getting pregnant while I was struggling myself, it was like a kick to the gut, or shall I say - ovaries.
Through my struggles to get pregnant, I found so much comfort and support in women that I shared my sorrows with, and found that so many other women, including my friends and family, had suffered the same kinds of problems. I don't want to say that misery loves company, but when it comes to reproduction and something that feels like it should just "happen", when it doesn't, you feel like there must be something wrong with you as a woman. Sharing isn't something that I'm usually particularly fond of, but in this instance, I found such strength and courage from other women's stories, and if you are experiencing the same problems, I encourage you to talk with women in your life and you'll be surprised to find out you are not alone.
So I share my story with you, and if you're up for it, the journey ahead as I dip my toes into the waters of pregnancy and motherhood all over again. Someone I shared my story with once told me "nothing worth it in this life comes easily" - I couldn't agree more. I feel that my sense of gratitude for my current family, and my expanding one, is so profound because of the emotional rollercoaster we've been on. I send courage to those of you who are struggling to become pregnant, and find comfort, strength and faith in those women around you who share their stories on the bumpy road to motherhood.....
(photo courtesy of Stuart Miles)